In the year 2017, it was the first time I layed eyes on someone. And in that very moment, these words I uttered, in my mouth "Oh daam, Her Height...just resembles my mother & that level of Cuteness... wished she was mine".

One year has passed from the day I saw her...,
So it's finally the time...
When I got, guts to join up with her & her group... But Being in her group wasn't so helpful nor so painful...

Because The group was always full of every ounce of joy & happiness, if someone was in pain they used to try sort things out by them self...

(But now it seems , the group I once knew no longer exists...those happiness & those moments are just captured memories. I wish some day we all go back to who we used to be, the group always had there darkest secrets & I'm still unaware of.. 

From my view the group is like a series of Netflix. 13 Reasons Why & I'm playing Clay's character... 

Secret's which leads to lies, and lies which leads to pain...& We all are in some kind of pain. But the biggest pain is with this girl who want someone to notice to her back & say Can we go back to that life where this all started...

There used to be a time when we use run to, solve each others problem, but now... it shreds me into pieces. I still wish we all can go back.)

Anyways back at my miserable life. I started wondering various things about her...

I was questioning to myself... What will happen if I had to ask her out? Will it be, good or bad? What will she say? Weather it will Yes or, No? How will she react? and more..

So many questions but still no answer....

Now it's the year 2019, I still didn't figure out. what I want for myself... My chances of having her were frequently dropping from 100 to 0...

Days were passing by, Nights were passing by... But her cuteness level never drop a inch, she is still cute as ever. That might be the reason to make her mine...

My time of 2nd  Engineering, was ended and it was the vacation period. Every one were enjoying there lives, & finally made up my mind "This time For Sure... No matter what will happen, I won't back down from the decision I made."

And for the first time, I texted my feelings to her. Describing everything that I feel about her...
(Meanwhile, people used to tell me if you what to ask and get a proper response, ask her face to face, so wait until vacation is over, but I was out of my  patience),

 So I keep on texting her, started sticker fight on WhatsApp...did all kind of various things...

And  finally the day came so called  "The Doomsday"

That days earlier morning, the response to all those feelings came, my heart started to pound faster and faster... Wondering what will she say? What will be her text to me...

Heartbeat steadily increasing... 

(if dr. would, have his equipment his eardrums might have been busted)... 

The message arrived at morning 9.
As I read the message, to all my feelings, my heartbeat stopped beating itself. There was a complete silence. Kinda felt creepy though.

The reply she gave to me was..."I don't want to be in a Relationship with anyone, Sorry."

(All those messages, all those sticker they meant nothing to her.. hahaha what a joke I'm)

Meanwhile every one close to me were drifting apart...(my school friends no longer text or even talk, same with my highschool friends, even The Joyful group was losing its joy.)

Just in fraction of minute my happy life changed to sad...

Then it was the next year, the 3rd year of my Engineering life.
My last posted blog was dated in April, 2019.
And now it was August the 1st. 

She wasn't sure what to do with herself... she was wondering from the day she said "No", the only question she was having "Was it right to say no...?"

On that day, suddenly she came to me
(& The conversation went like this)

"What would have happened if I had said yes...?" she questioned me.

"On that day if you had said yes, my life would be different...and we might have experienced something new in our life" I replied.

She asked. "Then is it okay? If you were to  asked Me Again? Coz I have feelings for you but I was able to express them. So can we...

(As she said those lines, for the 1st time in my life, I felt not to die & not to give up on myself.

In the month of August, we were officially, refered as Couple,.
Yep I did asked her out again. & Now we trying to understand each other better...

(There might be times when it's hard for you to handle me... & I might snap from the only thread I'm hanging with. At that time can you still  able to hold me? The only question left to answer.)

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STORY OF MY LIFE